So I've decided I wont sit and wait for it to pass. It's just too much pain to take in. It has been one of those downs that scatter with it's fall, what seems to have already settled. It felt like I was pulled back into the past. I was never one to obsess about the past, I look at life as problems that need to be solved. Define it. Solve it. And if you can't solve it just accept it, or let it be and walk away. That's why this time I found myself in unfamiliar territory.. thinking about what is already done, grieving over what had already passed, and I can't change that. I realize I've been walking away a lot, and accepting so little. I need to figure it all out, come in terms with my past, and accept. But till I have done so, I refuse to keep on hurting. I'm not waiting for it to pass.
So pain, I'm washing you away. I'm wishing you away. I'm making you go away. You're not welcome here, so go away.
